Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Words mean something

So often other, better writers, say the words I wish I could...here is an excellent example....

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Answering the call

Several people have asked me about my blog in the last few weeks, so I am going to answer the call, and post, be it ever so sporadic. Today, I felt more peace in my soul than I have in a long, long time. I cannot tell you exactly why. Not that it is a secret, but because I really do not know. So many things have changed in the last few days, weeks, months. I am sure quiting my old job, which I hated, and finding a new job, which I think I love, has a lot to do with my new found peace. As does Matt quiting his job, and shedding 15 pounds of stress. We are in a weird state of topsy-turvy, which seems to be our normal, however it always takes some getting used to. I have been saying for years that after such and such time/event/accomplishment we are going to have a normal, easy life. I have also said over and over again that I am going to quit saying that. Really, I do not think we will ever be settled, secure, or stable. I am working on being okay with that, and I must be making some progress because even in the midst of our craziness my heart is at rest.

On a completely unrelated note, I also realized today that something really important has started to take place...we have started getting comfortable in our new family dynamic. I know Tabitha has been here for six months, but just recently being a family of four has shifted from being a tremendous challenge to completely normal. I do not know what made me realize that we had finally reached our cruising altitude, but all of a sudden my ears popped and I settled comfortable into my seat for the ride. It makes me happy.