On a completely unrelated note, I also realized today that something really important has started to take place...we have started getting comfortable in our new family dynamic. I know Tabitha has been here for six months, but just recently being a family of four has shifted from being a tremendous challenge to completely normal. I do not know what made me realize that we had finally reached our cruising altitude, but all of a sudden my ears popped and I settled comfortable into my seat for the ride. It makes me happy.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Answering the call
Several people have asked me about my blog in the last few weeks, so I am going to answer the call, and post, be it ever so sporadic. Today, I felt more peace in my soul than I have in a long, long time. I cannot tell you exactly why. Not that it is a secret, but because I really do not know. So many things have changed in the last few days, weeks, months. I am sure quiting my old job, which I hated, and finding a new job, which I think I love, has a lot to do with my new found peace. As does Matt quiting his job, and shedding 15 pounds of stress. We are in a weird state of topsy-turvy, which seems to be our normal, however it always takes some getting used to. I have been saying for years that after such and such time/event/accomplishment we are going to have a normal, easy life. I have also said over and over again that I am going to quit saying that. Really, I do not think we will ever be settled, secure, or stable. I am working on being okay with that, and I must be making some progress because even in the midst of our craziness my heart is at rest.
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5 comments:
YEA!! I came home and you had posted something. Your writing makes me happy. Thank you for sharing. Love you and I have missed the family of 4.
I'm not sure what normal is (or if its over-rated :D) I try to simply distinquish between surviving and living - sometimes life is one and sometimes it is the other.
I seriously wish I could come remodel your bathroom! :D I also seriously wish that we had two bathrooms.
thanks for writing!
the end :)
I felt the exact same way when Chi turned 6 months! Welcome to the fun part, it just gets better from here.
I think topsy-turvy is our state of normal too. Some days, I crave stability, but I'm usually just grateful that our life is full of varying degrees of adventure. I dig your airplane analogy, by the way. Six months is perfect cruising altitude. :)
I'm so glad you posted! And so glad that things are good there. So, so glad.
You know, I think that sometimes we look *back* and realize that things were calmer and better and more stable than we realized. I had this odd moment this week where I thought back on an experience 10 years ago, and I realized that I was so much happier in that moment than I thought I was. And I thought: I want to know in the present how good things are. You know?
Love love love.
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